Thoughts on Time but Print Overdue

I was in a relationship: three years... inconstantly. It ended fairly recently maybe not so recent. Questions of loyalty and love. I had a big heart or head for acceptance. I was patient. I forgave. I was not the "it" ...the thing that is worth it all. Often said you are the one that allows what you will endure. Exhaustion from a battle that I would never win.

Now let's readjust ... change things... separate these jigsaw pieces of our life. Tell me the feeling...when one gives it all...is it an utopia? I imagine what a love! a rare love. No doubt I will be the receiver. Nonexistent with you. Willingness measured in so many magnitudes. No denial of beatific. Your preference to leave ... to achieve your obligations. I hope cause no bemoans of your sacrifice.

WHoA! It's BeeN that LonG!?

I'm gonna do a quicky...actually 2 back to back. -playin' catch up.

Alright...that horrible bike accident in the last one? Well yea...I had been walking around for about a week before I went in and was told that I had fractured my arm. What a brut I am! (and an idiot.) Can't completely blame me...no heath insurance and shit hurts for a few days I just realized after a while it wasn't going away.

I was on the winning team for round 2 (-won and landlord appealed small claims! -who does this?) of trying to get my rental deposit from almost 2 yrs ago! So judgement has been put in and we wait...again.

-currently: Well I did my first semester of college after 5yrs! 5yrs! crazy right!? Not that I did it but the fact that I am getting older and what did I do those 5yrs? insert: applause! It has been a huge adjustment and I'm trying to do it right this time...work less...take a loan here and there. All in all I feel good about it. Coffee, Liqstore and Dog Walking all still exist as employment. OH I got a REAL christmas tree!!! First ever in my Life! The house smells delicious every time I walk in and Blu (dog) is deathly afraid of it which all works out w.having fear of him peeing on it. Very sad that I will have to take it down soon...not really sure how I go about this as far as disposal like I said I am a christmas tree virgin.

Now I am not a holiday person what so ever...I'm Cambodian. I did go to a cookie and cosmos party and let me tell you...I was super domestic baking 4 dozen cookies! These ladies get down! Lots of cosmos and wine later and not much cookies it was a happenin' party. So to the new year: I am promising myself that 26 is the end of all stupid acts done by myself. (I said this at 25 but I declare a re-do.) I think 2010 will be good. I think I will cruise through it.