Thoughts on Time but Print Overdue

I was in a relationship: three years... inconstantly. It ended fairly recently maybe not so recent. Questions of loyalty and love. I had a big heart or head for acceptance. I was patient. I forgave. I was not the "it" ...the thing that is worth it all. Often said you are the one that allows what you will endure. Exhaustion from a battle that I would never win.

Now let's readjust ... change things... separate these jigsaw pieces of our life. Tell me the feeling...when one gives it all...is it an utopia? I imagine what a love! a rare love. No doubt I will be the receiver. Nonexistent with you. Willingness measured in so many magnitudes. No denial of beatific. Your preference to leave ... to achieve your obligations. I hope cause no bemoans of your sacrifice.

WHoA! It's BeeN that LonG!?

I'm gonna do a quicky...actually 2 back to back. -playin' catch up.

Alright...that horrible bike accident in the last one? Well yea...I had been walking around for about a week before I went in and was told that I had fractured my arm. What a brut I am! (and an idiot.) Can't completely blame me...no heath insurance and shit hurts for a few days I just realized after a while it wasn't going away.

I was on the winning team for round 2 (-won and landlord appealed small claims! -who does this?) of trying to get my rental deposit from almost 2 yrs ago! So judgement has been put in and we wait...again.

-currently: Well I did my first semester of college after 5yrs! 5yrs! crazy right!? Not that I did it but the fact that I am getting older and what did I do those 5yrs? insert: applause! It has been a huge adjustment and I'm trying to do it right this time...work less...take a loan here and there. All in all I feel good about it. Coffee, Liqstore and Dog Walking all still exist as employment. OH I got a REAL christmas tree!!! First ever in my Life! The house smells delicious every time I walk in and Blu (dog) is deathly afraid of it which all works out w.having fear of him peeing on it. Very sad that I will have to take it down soon...not really sure how I go about this as far as disposal like I said I am a christmas tree virgin.

Now I am not a holiday person what so ever...I'm Cambodian. I did go to a cookie and cosmos party and let me tell you...I was super domestic baking 4 dozen cookies! These ladies get down! Lots of cosmos and wine later and not much cookies it was a happenin' party. So to the new year: I am promising myself that 26 is the end of all stupid acts done by myself. (I said this at 25 but I declare a re-do.) I think 2010 will be good. I think I will cruise through it.

today

brrr...in june. what a fall beginning to the summer in mpls. where do i start? it's been a while. well kids last time we spoke things were swell. since then my turn of events have gone down hill literally...including myself. i have become one of those wonderful commuters in mpls (on bike)...good for me...good for the world right? well who knew this could be kinda really dangerous?! in a split second i fell tumbling down the marshall hill! i proceeded to cuss my bike out jump back on and ride not noticing road burns along my right side and a god-ly hurt arm. i can deal with pain i mean really deal but fukk! needless to say i will be going to the doctors in a few days if not up to par. if you ride please be careful...i consider myself a pretty good damn rider and the pavement reminded me, "bitch you ain't that good!" other matters: blu and i have relocated...imagine that! we hope to stay in our new humble commode for more than 6 mo. quite amazing actually. legal matters...ohh the matters. i like court...well don't mind it, i am even considering studying law...it's the process geez...i mean collecting a rental deposit i had no idea, had to go through such a time consuming system...so the uneasy feeling of an unresolved matter is stressful even though i have no doubt the truth will prevail and i am sure to succeed! it still sucks. personal legal matters i can't even begin to tell you about...pray and win the lottery...stay positive right? well that's what everyone keeps telling me. my best friend is home from months of work release and we are ready for beach day and endless nights of craziness. let me tell you i will not bore you with the weather in mpls anymore...can't believe i mentioned it in my last post as well. i CANNOT be one of those people! so yes exciting crazy stories! hang on to your britches! until then...be good. -and if you can't; be good at it!

blog fools

Did you get redirected here? I’m sorry, no I really am. I sat for about 20 min. ready to spit and I did///and it was good and I should have known myspace wanted to ruin it…tech diff my non-having-ass. Want me to recreate the magic? Okay for you anything. So November in MPLS is really blowing me with no snow. Yes, I said it and I'll say it again SNOW damn it. 10 degrees warmer and my non-having-ass would be peachy keen! Shit, I reached for wine and it wasn't there...we can see where this is going. Anyhoo. I have relocated this past week and feel a little at ease mentally and physically and really in aww that I have found a place to rest my head for more than 5 mo. I invite my folks yes, you to all join me at my humble commode. Odd and a little early for reflections but boy what a year it has been! And I mean for each of you that will and can read this I can say for each and every-one of you. Hallmark moment...and for those that I can't; that so supposed friend list get off...there ruined it. All in all though the craziness I have been blessed to see friends from outta state and country, be sad about gal homo club closing, have a spirit from time to time, not ride my bike, kiss my blu and financially be "ok." Damn things are good!

genius reason

I write in my head. Nothing ever twice. The re-play button does not exist. Here I will try. To re-create I will share.